I said it!

Ok...it's been awhile since my last post. It' s late so I'll make this brief...until tomorrow. Officially 10/31/07 I will re-enter blogger land. I don't write as eloquently as some I know but so what. This isn't about anyone but me. Occasionally I might write about someone else but for the most part this will be about my day to day struggle in improving my health. A look at goals, dreams, success and yes...even failures. They are all a part of who I am.

Today I'm 5'2" and weigh 203.6. I'm obese. THERE...I SAID IT. I'm obese. Now then I've admitted it, I can do something about it. When you are in denial you can't change because there is no reason to change and you have nothing to change. Well I have plenty to change. Mentally, physcially and spiritually.

Physcially I can't do the things I want to do. My joints ache. I'm tired. I have no energy to do anything or to change anything. I feel like crap, which by the way...how does crap feel? I'm bored. So therefore, I eat. I eat when I'm happy, sad, angry, bored, alone or in a group. Every emotion there is and thensome.

So today begins the day before. Tomorrow begins the journey of a lifetime. Because that is what it will be a lifetime. Here's what I'm going to do for the next 7 days:

1) I will follow the Weight Watcher's flex points plan and stay within my daily points range of 24.
2) I will journal every teenny, tiny morsel I put in my mouth.
3) I will earn 4 activity points 5 of the 7 days.

This is not the first time I've tried to loose weight. I've tried more times than I care to remember. This time it's about me getting fit and healthy. I will not rely solely on the scale. That is only 1 of many indications of a person's health. People can be obese and sick as well as thin and sickly. You know you've seen them. Thin as a rail, gaunt skin, no muscle tone, ashen color. That's not for me. If you ever see me getting that way...kick me in the pants. Grab ahold and shake the crap out of me.

Why this time ...... family history...heart disease. My father died in June of 2005. My mother had not been feeling well for sometime. We attributed it to the strain of taking care of my dad who had Parkinson's. December the 22nd her dr put her in the hospital to check her out because she hadn't been feeling well and was short of breath. The EKG's, stress test, blood work all came back normal. The nurse said she would be going home as soon as the dr came in. He came in and I told him about her not being able to walk for any length of time. shortness of breath on exeration. Sleeping a lot. Her regular dr felt that a heart cath needed to be done to rule out a blockage. The Dr who did the heart cath came out and said there were too many blockages to put in stents. She would need a quad-ruple bypass. She had the bypass December 26, 2005. Since then she has had stents put in 4-5 times. The last time she came close to dying twice in 2 days. Twice I almost lost my mother. There is longevity on my Mom's side. My grandmother lived to be a 101 years old and going strong. On the other hand my grandfather was young when he died....heart issues. Here's the thing folks. If mom's dr had not have pressed the issue with the heart cath she would be dead. NEVER, NEVER did any of the test they do, EKG, Stress test, blood work...NOTHING show anything to be concerned about. Only when they do a heart cath does anything show up.

What does all this have to do with loosing weight? You have to know what is in your family tree. What I could be facing if you don't make the changes now. Sure I still might face heart issues in the future. But I bet I lessen my chances if I do something about it now.

Until next time,
God Bless.

Good night