New attitude...new beginning

It's time to resurrect this blog. It's time to journal the good, the bad and the ugly. It's time to move forward and not look back.

I've been absent way to long. I don't write flowery words. I seem to ramble on and say nothing. This is a journey for me about me. Come along if you wish.

I have secretly wished I was an athelete. A graceful runner. A strong, powerful, confident woman. On the inside, I'm afraid of my own shadow. I'm afraid people will laugh. Make fun of me. Ridicule me. I'm afraid I won't be any of things I want to be.

And I'm right. I won't. I won't because I won't even attempt to do any of the things I want to do. Well that's not entirely true. A couple of weeks ago I did go out in a kayak. Oh my gosh it was so much fun. Take for instance..a graceful runner. I've been told I have good form. I just need to work on my endurance. In other wards I need to continue to build on my level to where I can run for longer periods. Do I continue...no. I go so far and stop.

Do you know what one of the saddest things in life is? To live your life and never achieve the dreams you were given from God. That is sad. Those are a gift to you and you never enjoy the gift. You never open the package to see how magnificent it is. You keep it wrapped up sitting on a shelf in your mind only to play out how you would feel if you opened it.

The gift is waiting to be opened. It's sat on the shelf in my mind long enough. The next few days I will assess where I'm at and come up with a plan for the next 30 days.

What are your dreams? What's holding you back?